Today, 16th of January 2009, was Pikaia’s ‘official’ due date.
H and I both took the day off work, and spent the morning just cuddling in bed together and talking. This was perfect. We then made a flotilla of paper boats in as many rainbow colours as we could find lying about the house. H made A4 ones and I made A5 ones. Daddy Bear boats and Mummy Bear boats. And we took them down to the river and set them afloat.
I have always known what middle name I want to give to my all children. It’s my mother’s maiden name, and it is fantabulous. I use it myself. On one of the little boats, the pink one, because of my strong but absolutely nonsensical feeling that Pikaia was a girl, I wrote ‘In memory of “Pikaia” [Fantabulous Middle Name] [H’s surname], May 2008’. And on the other side I wrote:
As the boats floated off, the little pink one was joined by one of the bigger ones, which stuck protectively to it as they drifted between the incoming tide and out-going river current. They were still together when H said ‘Let’s leave them to it, shall we?’
We came home to light a candle, and as we did so the grey murky drizzle broke, and we saw the sunset. Pink and orange.